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I checked in tonight to see if I'd had any visitors since I posted yesterday and then I remembered it was four years ago today that I first started drift. The subject of my first post back in 2006 was Scotty, an ex-boyfriend, who has a birthday today. I thought about ringing him (we keep in touch from time to time) to wish him a happy birthday, but decided against it. Last time I heard from him (in January) he was back on the booze and wanting to come and stay with me (he lives in Sydney). I said he could come for a visit, but then I never heard from him. I partly decided not to call him tonight because it's time to move on. There have been a lot of changes in my life since we split, but Scotty repeats the same old patterns - from sobriety to being wasted (which is when I usually hear from him). I care about him, but I want to try something different and that means I'm not going to contact him just yet. I'll wait a little longer for him to call me and hopefully when he does he'll have made some worthwhile changes in his life.

Now, next time you hear from me I'll let you know about some of the changes I've made in my life...